A sermon on grief, leadership + some incredibly good news -- No one is coming to save me. Tears slid down my warm cheeks as this reality hit at two critical moments in my life. The first happened after my anxiety got so bad that I started having panic attacks while preaching. I realized hiding my anxiety so well had massive consequences. People really did not know I was not okay. Apparently, no one was coming to save me.
It also brings up for me a reminder that grief has a way of making us feel alone, which can make it harder to reach out, harder to share, harder to open to connection. It can feel like having a contagious disease. You touched on the pandemic in here, and there may be an interesting parallel or metaphor there.
I hate that about grief. It's already a terrible experience and then we somehow believe we're the only one. Grief is so very complex, isn't it? I think there is much to explore around how grief lives in our bodies from pandemic season...
I enjoyed this, Jenny. It's hard to look at the boogeyman(men), but until we do, we can never become the person we are meant to be; challenged to make a difference for others; all we can do is run (away).
Thanks so much for sharing this, Jenny.
It also brings up for me a reminder that grief has a way of making us feel alone, which can make it harder to reach out, harder to share, harder to open to connection. It can feel like having a contagious disease. You touched on the pandemic in here, and there may be an interesting parallel or metaphor there.
Thanks again for being you.
I hate that about grief. It's already a terrible experience and then we somehow believe we're the only one. Grief is so very complex, isn't it? I think there is much to explore around how grief lives in our bodies from pandemic season...
I enjoyed this, Jenny. It's hard to look at the boogeyman(men), but until we do, we can never become the person we are meant to be; challenged to make a difference for others; all we can do is run (away).
Yes. I ran for a long time. I still do sometimes. But not nearly as often. I'll take that as a win. :)
Absolutely, me too. That was the way I was brought up.